This post has a bit'o profanity. Please excuse it as artistic license! Look ma, I'm an artist.. Lmao..
Well a new year has come to sit back and watch. Same time last year I could have never foreseen where I am now, what I've done and been through, and the unclear future that awaits me. It's amazing the clarity that time allows you to have when viewing the past, the old saying "hindsight is 20/20". It is amazing that a person who doesn't trust, when they do and get burnt, they still choose to try and trust. I guess it's because those who you let the closest have a better shot at a sucker punch. Se La Vie..
I've never been one to make new years resolutions, as it's just the changing of the date on the calendar. Yesterday wasn't any less special than tomorrow is going to be. What is there to celebrate? A good meal? I have those often enough, a "renewed sense of hope"? If I didn't have the hope yesterday, why the hell would I today? I've got a sense of hope, but amazingly overnight it didn't change.. I've still got a hangover from the refreshments I was drinking yesterday, the "New Year" didn't change that. What good is this "Happy New Year" shit? Mi Vida Loca..
What about Happy Old Year? There were some things about last year that I really am going to miss. Some missed opportunities, some closing of doors, yet amazing enough, last year some doors opened too.. Damnit.. Happy Old Year... Life isn't about looking into the future, it's about remembering the past and doing something with the knowledge that you gained from it.
Hope and Joy, Bah Rump a bump bum, Happy Holiday, Merry Kwanza and all that shit doesn't make a difference in the quality of life does it? But "WE" choose to center ourselves around "Traditions" which all pertain to the past.I am 100% in following traditions, the traditions of my people, the traditions of my family, the traditions of my own. Can I make my own "tradition"? I believe that every day is worth as much as the past day and the next day. It's just my belief, I really don't believe that a life should be governed by a calendar or a watch. If you ask me the day of the week 80% of the time I can't tell you. Am I stupid? I beg ya to call me that, I'll have you reconsidering the meaning of your existence and so full of doubt about all that in which you believe that it will amaze your mother.. Did Einstein wear a watch?
So why is it that we wish a Happy New Year, is it saying "yeah, I hope your last year was fucked, that way this year will appear to work better for ya".. In "my time", the time I actually take for myself to get away from the hectic world in which we live in (wow, a line from the song live and let die.. amazing how it slips in there) it's the past to which I return. Not the future. The future is uncertain, but the past is locked in.
Plans for this year? Well, Tomorrow I hope to wake up. If I don't, then it wasn't meant to be. If I do, then there's a high chance of pissing somebody off, but again, Se La Vie.. Summer hopes and dreams? I have things I want to do now, why wait? I want to go back to Gettysburg. I want to go tour DC again, I want I want I want. Guess what, that isn't going to make it so. Wishing a Happy New Year isn't going to help a damn thing. So instead of Happy New Year, do me a favor.. Wish me a Happy Old Year, since I already know how it ends.
