Time.....

Time.. An amazing thing..
Time heals all wounds.. (incorrect)
Time fixes problems... (incorrect)
It just takes time to get where you want to be (incorrect)
It will work itself out with time (incorrect)
Time will tell.. (wow.. finally one I can agree with)

Time, what is time without motivation to take care of ones self and own responsibilities? Where in the mention of Time being the "end all save all" does it mention that you need to get off your ass and get things done for yourself instead of waiting for "Time".

Time is full of love, time is full of hate, time is full of honesty, and time is full of hypocrisy. But most of all, time is full of opportunity. But you must take the "time" to make the opportunity. In the last several months, I've felt lost in "time". Time has been a blur, a dream, a fog in which I'm slowly waking from. What has happened to all of this time? I've been waiting for time to do all of the work. I'm done waiting, as there's "no time like the present" although now that I've typed that, it's the past. Isn't time rhetorical?

Many things have been going on in life, my children have grown before my eyes.... In preparation for hoping to join the Army, I've found that change doesn't happen quickly, you have to give it time.. Where do you take this time from though? Yourself.. In essence you have to trade time for time. You can't pay for the time.. No matter how much you barter, you don't get extra time.. This isn't a video game, for 3 extra credits, you can't just lower your mile run time.. The time I am spending now on the computer, I am trading for time on the treadmill, or in the gym. Is it a worthwhile trade? I may never know. Does it feel better not to be beating myself to death to gain some more muscle and endurance? Yes, but guess what, because I am skipping today, I will have to spend more time tomorrow.. What if I want to do something productive, like solve world hunger, the national debt, homeless people in our own country? I like to fancy myself as a great multi tasker, however when I'm at the two mile mark on the treadmill, the only thing I can think of is my next breath.. The next pushup in a series, the next song to fight the heavy bag through, the next pound and inch to shed. Motivation is what has to get me through this, not time.. Time just passes by the same, whether I'm being productive for my goals, or pushing buttons on this laptop, allowing letters form words, words to make semi-lucid thoughts, and then forming into much longer than needed paragraphs, ramblings if you may.

I could be writing about things that are important to me, my family, my friends, my hopes and dreams for the future, but instead I believe I should be going and putting forth the motivation to get back on the treadmill, go fight the bag, go get myself back into the shape I need to be in, so I can in hopes to provide better for my family a more stable foundation. The only easy day was yesterday, but in essence, what did I do to make a difference? I believe it was just wasted time, moving from one day on the calendar to another. Did I effect a positive change in somebodies life? Did I effect a negative change in somebodies life? Not that I'm aware of, I believe it was a wandering aimless day. I'm finally seeing some results of the time I spend making myself more mentally and physically fit, although it's taking more time than I'd like. Mentally fit, however is that truly the term I am looking for, or am I looking for emotionally numb, therefore when the time comes, the only pain that I have to allow myself to endure will be purely physical? Where is my plan #2, what happens if I don't make the Army.. Well, I guess then I'll take the time to reconsider my options and opportunities at that time, instead of wasting it now thinking of negativity.

I wish I could write all the thoughts that I'd prepared myself to, but really, after all of the whimsical nonsense, I don't believe I really have the time.